Remember when youTHOUGHT you were grown? (PART 1)

Jim and I 08-15-1982
Dad in the background



This is a re-post for all my old friends. I wanted to post it again for my new friends. It was originally posted 09-17-06 on Yahoo 360, anyone remember that ghost/friend?

When I was around 9 years old my mom and “real” dad got a divorce. I remember coming home from school and all of our stuff was packed up. Mama said Nolan (my “real” dad, I’ll be using his first name) was going to help my grandparents and we were going to her mamas…my memaws. At the time I felt like my world had crashed down around me. I now know it was the right thing for mama to do and she never said anything bad about Nolan to us, we learned all the bad on our own.

For about three years it was just mama, me and the boys. We went through a lot of hard times but learned from them and I thought and still think my mama was Superwoman! In 1979 my mama met the man who she’s married to now. He is the dad you would hand pick for yourself if you could, we were lucky! We also gained a brother and a sister when they got married.

Around March of 1980 we moved to Rison. (Mama says that’s the armpit of Arkansas) I hated Rison School with a passion. I felt like I had been picked up and dropped in Hell! In Rison is also where I met my daughter’s father. We lived down this little gravel road and my brothers and I was walking down the road and ran into Jim. I remember telling my sister that same night I was going to marry him when I grew up. I was 13 years old and thought I was grown of course! Jim ask me “to go” with him a month or so later and I didn’t hate Rison so much any more.

Jim and I argued a lot! When I was 15 he started acting different and I had a friend take me to his house he wasn’t there. We went to some apartments where I knew he had friends and his car was there. I looked in the car and it had boxes of girls stuff in it,he had moved this chick in with him! I went ahead and knocked on the door and when he came to it I just gave him his promise ring back. We talked on the balcony for awhile and decided we could be friends. (Yeah right) I wanted to push him off that balcony so bad!

Well in a few weeks Jim started calling me a lot. Him and ***** were fighting and they broke up. I was sneaking behind mamas back to go see him. I had walked through the woods one day to meet him down at the store and while we were sitting there mama drove up! She told Jim to go home and told me to walk home and she’d deal with me when she got home. She was so mad and we were so scared! (You know you were Jim!)

I remember sitting at home waiting for mama to get home and wishing she would hurry up and get it over with and at the same time hoping she wouldn’t get there any time soon. When she walked in she looked at me and said “If you think I’m such a monster with horns, you can marry that boy and see if he can make you happy!”

That was August 8, 1980 we were married August 15^th and I had just turned 16 on the 4^th of the month.

I never thought my mama was a monster with horns!

Part 2 is coming...just scroll